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I live a life that is constant hell
And no one wants to wish me well
I act like I'm happy
In reality life is crappy
Constant stress, pain, heartache
This happy act I always have to fake
Inside I am dying
Crying and crying
I'm 17 and I've had a hard life
I've had to bury so much strife
I've had my heart broken left and right
Said so many awful things out of spite
I've burned bridges
Fallen off crumbling ridges
Lost people I truly loved
Been lied to when I was told I was beloved
I've died inside again and again
I still don't believe this emotional hell will ever end
I cry every night before I sleep
I have no sanity left to keep
I'm driving myself crazy
Holding onto maybe
Loving people who don't feel the same
I don't even know why I came
Why I try to be a friend
I wind up scarred in the end
My scars are so deep
Sometimes I think I would rather sleep
My dreams are so much better than reality
How is it that you see
Straight through the lies
To the pain in my eyes
My world is being flipped upside down
But you are my anchor to the ground
Never before have I been found
I was starting to doubt it would ever happen
Now these newly found wings I can finally start flappin
I've waited so long
Now I can finally be strong
I've been falling apart for so many years
I have shed trillions of tears
I have loved with no gain
For a long time my world has only seen rain
It's been crowded with clouds from pain of the past
I always thought the rain would forever last
I don't understand how you found me
How do you just see
I've fallen so much
Never had a crutch
I'm covered in scars
I've fought so many emotional wars
All alone in the past
Because I've been moving so fast
But with you it's different than all the rest
I really think this could be the best
Yes my life is constant emotional hell
But with you I can finally be well
I'm stressed all the time
Sometimes the pain covers me with a layer of brine
And it's hard for my light to shine
But the odd thing is that brine has gone
I'm no longer a helpless fawn
You have turned me into a bird that can sore
You see through my walls to my very core
As long as I live I swear this to you
Through you pain and fear I will always see you through
This I promise you tonight
To forevermore be your guiding light!