Love for me is an infinite struggle
It's constant and aggravating
The difficulty comes with the pain I tolerate
Pain of losing people that I love
Missing them and wishing things were better
I drive myself nuts doing such things
It's almost like I perfer to suffer
But the  reality is I perfer not to let go
Life is painiful for me
It always has been
You know, and the thing is I'm just kind of used to it
To the pein and heart ache and the suffering
Heck, I expect it half the time
I expect the pain, the end of most of my relationships
That's why I struggle so much
Because most of the time I have no hope
No peace
No joy
And I always let the little things get to me
The anger of others the pain in their words
I always let what others think get to me
Because I care so much about people
I love so many
Even those that I shouldn't
And I fall easily
It's hard though to be in love with someone who doesn't love you back
In reality it is one of the worst fates that can ever befall you
Loving smeone with no return is one of the most painful things to do
It's worse than physical paiin because it hurts your heart
Not like a little bruise on your leg
More like a huge cut in your heart
This is how I live
Does anyone know how I can stop loving so much?