Right now I am pissed!  To tell you the truth I hate promise breakers!  If I pinky promise with someone I NEVER EVER break that promise!  But apparently breaking promises doesn't matter to some people... It's important to me because I grew up on broken promises and a very hard life... I mean My parents got divorced when I was 3 my dad got remarried when I was 7 that relationship and all that came with it was a disaster!  Come on try waking up every morning to someone screaming at you getting yelled at and pulled off the top bunk of your bed at midnight for something you didn't do.  Getting blamed for everyone elses wrong doings and getting the crap beat out of you for no reason.  My life sucks!  You know and the one thing I have always had is my dad.  My mom comes and goes I refuse to let her in any more because she has no idea how to be my mother! My dad is the one constant thing in my life!  He's the only person that's always been there for me... You know I thought Jonathan might be just as good as Dad right up there but man was I wrong... Of course their was Chris but we all knew that our relationship was going to end with either one of us breaking up with the other or us just quitting all together!  Don't ask me why I even tried to get to Chris I have no clue I guess I just saw one part of him that wasn't a back stabbing ass hole of a boy and clung to it but me doing that killed that part!  :/ he's a jerk now!  I really wish he wasn't he really can be nice!  Sigh... This post is just me venting... I just really hate my life right now!  I'm sure people have much worse lives than I do but for me my life sucks!  I'm tired of having a mother who can't keep her promises a family that thinks I'm a spoiled brat who gets everything she wants.  Oh family if your reading this you know what I'm talking about and do you really think I asked to have such a shitty life?!  Hell no I didn't I don't want my life!  I want a life where I'm not judged for my past mistakes and quite frankly you need to let mom have some space her mistake was more than 5 years ago let it go she's changed!  And you know something else I'm bipolar I'm 16 I'm clinically depressed and with out my meds I would turn into a psycho who only thought about killing her self!  You can tell me I don't need my meds all you want but I know it's true and I'm not giving in to your influence!  Sigh... Now I'm annoyed hungry tired and I'm going home and then to rehersal at 5 good bye