Love is hard

Life is no easier

But God is forever

He Loves with no end

Breathes Life into us all

And saves us with his grace.

I've had a lot to think about lately and quite frankly I just feel like I'm done. I'm tired of letting people do things like this to me get to me turn me into something I'm not.  Tell me if you are one of my many enemies why me?  What did I do to deserve this?  You make my life a living hell by turning the most important people in my life against me.  I mean lets see there Sarah Boos in 6th grade.  Um Chris Bays thank you for that one btw.  And now the guy that I really love Jonathan Gusler.  Why?!  What do you get out of making my life a living hell and ruining the most important relationships I have?  I know not all of you do it but there is a nice little section that does.  You people have no idea how much pain I'm in... I have a lot on my plate.  My family on my mom's side thinks I'm a spoiled brat who gets everything she wants and doesn't appreciate any of it.  I hate that they think that!  Sigh... The one really supportive person in my life is my dad.  I couldn't live with out him if I tried. Sigh.  I have emotional issues problems sigh... The one thing I had was my love for Jonathan and the knowledge that he loved me back.  And now he hates me and I don't know why.  I wrote him a goodbye letter I've decided to let him go because he's never coming back to me.  :'(  I love him so much still and now I have to live with the fact that he hates me!  :'(  I miss him so much... I hate feeling like this like I have nothing heartbroken.  I still don't know what I did wrong and it kills me.  Please if your one of my christian friends and your reading this pray for me.  I need it!  Good night all.