Sigh 4 am and I can't go back to sleep! I miss my favorite friend I am just so sick of this Jonathan bs... I told him off today trying to crush him... But now I feel bad even though I know he deserves it that's not the kind of person I am and now I can't sleep... Sigh... I feel the need to be the bigger person it's who I am... Jonathan if you read this i'm sorry about all the stuff I've been venting about I just can't stand losing you! It sucks! :( Seth if you read this your my favorite friend! :)