Almost 3 in the morning can't sleep at all! :/ Thinking about my guy! :) I love him so much! <3 sigh... I really wish I could be in his arms right now! :) I love him so much!  sigh... :) He has no idea... Well I'm planning something at the moment... :)  sneaky sneaky!  Seth if you read this comment if you wanna know.. Not guaranteeing I'll tell but.. You could comment! :) sigh... I love you so much! :) ok... My plan is simple... But I'm not gonna tell! :D  I'm really happy right now even though I know I'm never going to be able to sleep tonight... :/ I am just thinking about Seth!  In the middle of the night while I stay up and do things to entertain me... :D Sigh... 

Love...
It's a difficult thing
It's never easy to love someone
That's what everyone says
However it's easy to love you!
It seems so right
So natural
Just like breathing
I love you so much!
And I only wish you knew!
I know you know I love you
But you don't know how far I would go to keep you forever!
I love you my universe
I will forever and always!
You have helped me be myself again!
You've shown me that I am worth it!
You make me feel beautiful
You make me feel loved
I don't ever want to lose you!
Promise you'll love me forever
And I shall do the same!
I never plan on giving you away!
Never will I let you go!
I caught you
I finally have what I want!
I love you!
When I look into your beautiful blue eyes I fall for you all over again
Those eyes have so many expressions
Aggression
Love
Passion
Truth
Stubbornness
Anger even.
I love those eyes. =)
Baby You are AMAZING!
And as long as I live I won't let you go!
I promise you that!
=)

Smile A poem by Lady Kay
A smile is a simple thing
Something that is not so new.
How ever every time I smile
I seem think of you.
It seems new to me this face expression
I know it's not but still
You make me smile
And I love that
Not just that but all the crazy things you do!
I seem to make you smile too.
I've never had someone who can make me feel this way
I love you so
Oh don't you know?
My last regard for this little verse
I will love you always
You are my universe!

I love you baby! :)

Love a poem by Lady Kay

I love you so much

So much that there are no words.

I don't know what to do

I'm so nervous around you.

You give me butterflies.

You make me blush.

You make me smile

I haven't done those things in a long while

I miss you when we're apart.

I wish we never had to be

I want you so bad

So very bad baby.

Every time we kiss it's like a comet burning in space!'

I'll never find as long as I live another perfect mate!

Oh baby my dear if only you knew!

Oh baby how much I love you!

I love you with all that I am.

Completely, without fail.

Never will I stop as long as I live!

I will love you forever!

Forever and always!

If only you knew how much you mean to me!

If only I could make you see!

I will never stop loving you as long as I live! 

I will always have love to give!

Baby oh baby I hold you so dear!

How I wish I could ALWAYS have you near!

Oh darling my sweet

No love can compete

With that of yours and mine

No love is so Divine!

Good night my darling 

For I shall see you soon.

And when I do I will meet you under the moon

And you will make me swoon like always!

I wrote this for someone You know who you are I will never EVER stop loving you!  I promise you that I will love you with all of me!  I love you with my heart and soul and as long as I live I will NEVER  let you go! :D

People who know me and read this maybe one day you will understand why I love people the way I do.  Why I can't stop loving someone when I start... I know why now!  :)  God has plans for me to use my love for the benefit of others!  I'm gonna be grown up so soon!  And I finally believe that I can do this!  I want to help other people show them what it's like to be loved by God and by others like I am!  :)  I know that I have it tough but there are others out there who have it worse than I do and I want to give them joy! :)  I finally found someone who makes me joyful and I don't ever want to let them go!  :)

Life sucks.... sometimes there is nothing you can do to change or fix the past so.... I guess You just have to move on and let go!

Change a poem by Lady Kay


Life and love are difficult
That much is true
I say life and love are difficult
How about you??
The thing with me is
I always think negative
I need someone around who can help me think positive
You know something strange?
I've just got to say
My friends think I'm perfect
But my ex's say no way
Now the real question is
Why do I care what they reply?
Does it really matter that to them I don't comply
In all reality the answer is no
Well I wonder why don't I think that is so?
Why do I always take things negatively?
Why am I such a downer
Why do I let what others say bother me?
I shouldn't that's the point and that's what I'm trying to change
I'm changing for one reason
And I'll tell you this now.
The reason that I'm changing is because it's good for me
Not just because it's what others in my life want
But because for once
I want to be happy!
You people who read this may never understand
But the thing is I don't need you there holding my hand
This is a poem about what I need to become
It's time I stopped being a bum
I love so many people
Sometimes all the wrong ones
But the thing is I see the good in everyone
The one person I don't think is worth it is myself
And now It's time to start believing what everyone else knows is true
That I am worth it to them maybe even you
So if you read this poem and you think I'm crazy
Thanks a lot
Because it's true
A part of me will always love those people that I've lost
But the thing is I'm still moving on
So here's the point of this little ballad
I'm saying that I'm changing for the good of my self and no one else
I'm not doing this for anyone but me
Because the thing is the people that want me to change
Want it for all the wrong reasons
So I'll go
And through this years seasons
I'll be a better me
Than I have ever been before
And I will learn to be negative no more

Honestly I don't know what I want anymore... It seems pointless really holding on to Jonathan going back to Chris is stupid Idk what to do.. I'm moving on and quite frankly it scares me... I hate this feeling like I'm backed into a corner with no way out... I'm so lonely it hurts... :'(  I just hate this. It seems like everyone else is perfectly content being single.. But I can't stand it because it hurts to know that the reason I am single is because I've had my heart broken twice by 2 people I truly loved.... It hurts like hell! And I feel like the pain is never going to go away! Why can't I just block out all emotion why do I have to be so sensitive and fragile?

Love is difficult.
I tell you this now.
My love is difficult
I guess Oh well.
Goodbye for now
I need to think.
I will love him no more
It's no longer good for me