Partings

3 years I wasted on you.
Three years of love.
Thought you cared
Thought we were fine.
But I disappeared and someone else was on your mind.
Not like I was gone forever.
6 months to get back on my feet.
Three years I put up with your bullshit
And how did you repay me?
When I got back all we did was fight.
I'll never forget that fateful night.
When you told me I was a burden to you.
I realized then that our love couldn't be true.
I started to turn away.
But you started long ago.
Don't sit and act like I'm to blame.
Because we both know.
I became nothing more than a negative thing to you.
And for me you became a nightmare that just came true.
I fought for so long.
When everyone was against us I stayed strong.
I fought to hold on
And I let you go.
When I realized you didn't want me
When I realized you couldn't possibly.
Down you went and strong I stayed.
I guess in the end I got played.
Because this time I didn't let you break me.
Partings are such sweet sorrow.
But not you and me.
You took me for granted when all I wanted was your love.
You broke my spirit too.
You hit me and cursed me to be alone.
But what did I do to you,
Yes occasionally I played around
And forgot my own strength.
I didn't want to hurt you.
So I left to let you go.
But as it turned out you didn't even care.
So now you're depressed and sad and alone.
Well not my problem dear.
You go blaming me for the things you do
But we both know I'm not there.
You made the decision
To put me behind the rest.
You made the choice
To ignore the one who loved you best.
Partings are such sweet sorrow.
But not you and me.
Now here we are 4 months later.
I'm moving on
And your a mess.
But before you tip the scales.
I have to say I tried my best.
I wanted to be with you.
I didn't expect you to change.
But all you ever said to me.
Was that I had to change for you.
You told me what everyone else in my life always does.
I'm not good enough for your standards.
Who ever really was?
I can't be perfect.
I can't be Everything.
I make mistakes.
They define my humanity.
You know there is so much that you never even cared to see.
I am more than what you made of me.
Partings are such sweet sorrow.
But not you and me.
Goodbye.
Marciabear

done

okay today's the day
The day I say I'm done
This is getting old
I'm tired of this rerun
Make up your freaking mind
you like me or you hate me
Choose a freaking side
I'm tired of the constant divide
I'm sick of everyone]
Taking their shit out on me
Sick and tired of
Being stress relief
God damn why can't you just
See the real me
I'm not this struggling girl
She doesn't define me
Neither does the fact
That I'm bipolar
I mean seriously
I have no ill with you
Just because I don't fit your shoe
The shoe of standards you seem to keep adding to
I'm getting sick of your bipolar attitude
I mean seriously
Make up your fucking mind
Why oh why
Must you try
To ruin everything
Why oh why
Must you piss me off to the brink
I'm sick of the games you constantly play
With my emotions
Te bull shit
Why can't you fucking make up your GOD DAMN MIND!
I'm done with this bull shit
No more ms nice
I'm just gonna plaster on
That fake smile
But inside as your bipolar goes
My heart will explode
I hope your happy now
I'm tired of this pain
Make up your freaking mind
Or else I will erase
Myself from your lives
Everyone's but his
So good luck
And goodbye
I'm done

The one

Children often dream of love to last the ages
Pain and heartbreak sometimes break the faces
The ones that had smiles and laughter
But every once in a while
Someone finds true love
The type that fulfills the one they dreamed of
Love is not pain or pleasure or lust
But passion of the heart and pure trust
Love is what I've searched for all my life
And I found it by chance on a cold October night
I found a boy I just didn't want to let go
I fell like I never had before
To this day we are still together
I truly hope it'll be that way forever.
The love that I feel
Is true and it's real
And to lose that love
Would be to lose myself.

Crashing

World on fire

Pain in places she never knew existed 

Feeling as if the world is against her

Alone she thinks and feels 

But not in everything she knows 

She hides her pain behind a smile 

Runs from the fear of reality 

Tries not to break down

Always tries to be strong

But when she's alone she collapses  

Falls apart at the weight of the pressure on her heart

Feels rejected 

Hated 

Unwanted

ALONE

No hope left

She sits and watches as the burning house that was once her life

Falls to pieces all around her

She doesn't know what to do 

Where to go

Who to turn to all she knows 

Is that pain braces her days

And life feels like a game she can't win

She cries just hoping for a better tomorrow 

My oxygen

My oxygen
I love him too much for words to describe.
He is my oxygen the way I survive
No matter what may come our love is true
Cause I love him far too much to lose him too
The others were a grave mistake I wish could be undone
But he's the only one I want the only one I love
No matter the storms that rage around us
I'll stand by his side and we'll get through
I don't care what we face
He's my only rock
He's my life
My savior
My baby
My precious
My hunnybear
My protector
My love
And most of all my friend
He'll be there for me as I am for him
For he is the air I breathe
He's my oxygen

Him

We feel in love so sudden
So strange and new it was
I was with another
And falling out of love
Then he came along
Made me see the truth of my affections
Changed my view of myself
Of the hardness in my heart
He thawed me
Loved me
Mad me whole
Granted it was a rough beginning
But now I'm just happy
Loved
Joyful even
And the thing is I hate being apart from him
It's painful
And it feels like there's a chunk of my missing
No matter how I try to maintain my happy facade without him I always seem to fail...
But when we see each other after a long time apart
It gets better
We grow stronger
We love
We smile
We keep it whole
And the more we grow
The closer
The stronger
We become
My wolf
With blue eyes
Just the sweet one that I love.
See my heart has changed
Become softer and whole
Almost back to normal
I got the pieces back that people were holding
I got the love back that I longed for
And now I feel whole and new
Happy
Loved
And joyful
And it's all thanks to him
And his ways of loving
I don't know what I'd do with out my
Angel

Loves road

Love

It's such a funny thing

It can make you fall 

It can give you wings

It sweeps you up

And takes you on a journey

Through your heart and your soul

Til nothing is left but love and compassion

All hatred and anger will vanish

Yes you'll fight

But it will work out

True love what is it?

Really?

It's an adventure a quest to find who you really are and to learn how to lie for real

It's a choice and a curse and a blessing too

It's a roller coaster that will move 

Every direction even upside down

And spin you round and round 

Love is a wondrous thing

It's a gift to find that one

Does not matter if they're male or female  

What matter is that you love them

That they love you

And that at the end of the day you want to stay together

Love is work and play and peace of mind

Love is gentle and difficult and oh so kind

But love really is a way to be

Truly happy for your life.

That is loves road